Say What You Need To Say

Take all of your wasted honor. Every little past frustration. Take all of your so called problems, Better put 'em in quotations. Say what you need to say.

Walkin' like a one man army, Fightin' with the shadows in your head. Livin' up the same old moment Knowin' you'd be better off instead If you could only...Say what you need to say.

Have no fear for givin' in. Have no fear for giving over. You better know that in the end It's better to say too much, than never to say what you need to say again.

Even if your hands are shaking, And your faith is broken. Even as the eyes are closin', Do it with a heart wide open. Say what you need to say. Say what you need to, Say what you need to... Say what you need to say. - John Mayer from The Bucket List soundtrack

I have someone that I love. He doesn't know. We're friends, we're lovers, we're parents to different children with different lives and different homes. I loved him so much I walked away in January. He brought me back to him in June. I feel loved, honored, respected, challenged, engaged, admired.

He hasn't said the words. And neither have I.

"Say what you need to say. Say what you need to say." Every time I hear this song I want to call him and tell him. "I love you." Even if you don't love me back, even though I think you do. I love you. I love your fingers when they grab my hair in a passionate kiss. I love your attention to the little changes in my appearance. I love the father that you are to your children, the son that you are to your parents and the brother that you are to your sister. I love you for making tough decisions and taking risks. I love you because you are supportive, honest, caring and intellegent.

I love you because when we didn't speak for a while I missed you every day, and I am so glad to have you back in my life.

"Even if your hands are shaking, And your faith is broken. Even as the eyes are closin', Do it with a heart wide open. Say what you need to say."

If I knew today was the last day, I would tell him. If I knew this was my last minute, I would tell him. The next second isn't promised to me and yet I wait. And I love him. And I show him, not in the words that I say, but in the actions of my being. I hope he knows.

I'm Yours

the hand that envelopes the entirety of my cheek, the strength in your fingertips.

touch me, I'm yours.

the soft kiss like silk across my lips.

seduce me, I'm yours.

the warmth of your breath lingering, tingling on my neck.

tease me, I'm yours.

the sparkle of your eye like a secret waiting to be told.

sold, I'm yours.

the weight of your love as we dance together.

hold fast to me, I'm yours.

the promise unmade in the air, spoke often in dreams.

together forever, I'm yours.

Why? Because.

Because I think your smile is like light, because your warm hands heat my soul, because of the strength of your character, because we laugh together, because we talk for hours and hours on the phone and never run out of things to say, because we share the same morals and beliefs, because we share our lives everyday, because we are comfortable, because you are the sexiest man to me, because you are a gentleman, because you are my friend, because of the way you love me, because you are a leader, because you have vision, because you have passion, because you love pj’s and cartoons on Saturday mornings, because you are an undeniable chocoholic, because you live, because of the way your arms wrap around me, because when I hold you close to me, there is no other place that I want to be, because of the far away look you get when you are thinking about things, because your mind is beautiful, because you have a fun sense of humor, because I would follow you anywhere, because you would do anything for the people you care about, because you are a helper, because you surround yourself with good people, because I know you, because the hair on your stomach is so soft, because you are stubborn, because you are polite, because you are silly, because you understand, because you work hard, because you play hard, because you have honor, because you understand candlelight and a soft cd, because you know what “simple” means, because the little things are never an issue, because even the smallest dreams mean something, because you don’t have to understand the words to get the feeling, because you have courage, because you have felt loss, because you care for your body, because you know how to relax and enjoy, because you are accepting, because you don’t place blame, because your spirit is wise, because there is no selfishness, because there is caring, because there is thankfulness, because you think of me during your day, because even when we are apart, we’re not, because there is no fear, because being through the worst with you is better than the best alone, because there are moments when I feel you, even though you are not there, because my love is better for having you in my life, for these reasons and more, I love you.